Indahnya

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

Indahnya aturan Allah akan kehidupanku. Hari-hariku berlalu sentiasa berhubung kait diantara satu sama lain. Setiap hari, bertambahnya input untuk membawa diriku yang hina ke lembah yang lebih baik. Tapi aku lemah, aku terus berada dalam keadaan diriku yang parah walaupun hati bergolak untuk berubah. Tetap tewas. Ya Allah, kuatkanlah iman dan takwa hambamu yang lemah ini.

"Memori indah tersusun rapi dalam ingatan menjangkau masa silam yang berbaris di antara transisi suka dan duka."

Afraid

I'm afraid when we are ignoring the little things, because we are focusing on the big things, the little things affect the big things as a whole. The big things won't do any good either when these little things which are the root to big things are not cared properly. My main focus is about problems. Big problems eventually come from small problem. I tried to differ between both. Until then, we can set our priority. Prioritizing what's more important is something we lack in ourselves. It saddens me, when perkara-perkara yang remeh dibesar-bersarkan.

I can't bare myself from seeing the world today. Our condition. Is far beyond control to my concern. Open your eyes. Look around. What do you see. Try imagining the things you see around you on a larger scale. Teringat akan kata-kata abang Adnin. Kita perlu lihat yang baik pada setiap sesuatu. Jika tidak, perkara yang buruk tetap akan menjadi buruk, walhal dalam setiap keburukan itu, terdapat potensinya untuk berubah kepada kebaikan. It can be changed, eventually.

But who am I to write, and voice this topic out. My 'ilm is too little compared to others and to my friends. Having only the fundamentals in life and little understanding of the world, give me no rights or whatsoever. I'm afraid of not capable of justifying my words with my actions.


Sesungguhnya akan tiba tahun-tahun yang dipenuhi dengan tipu daya, pada waktu itu si pembohong dianggap benar dan yang jujur dianggap pendusta, pengkhianat diberi amanah dan orang kepercayaan dituduh pengkhianat dan Ruwaibidhah berucap sesukanya (yang seakan-akan bijak dan benar). Para sahabat bertanya: Siapakah Ruwaibidhah itu? Baginda menjawab: Orang bodoh yang berucap tentang urusan orang ramai.” (Hadith Riwayat Ahmad 15/37-38 dengan syarahan dan tahqiq oleh Ahmad Syakir. Isnadnya hasan dan matannya sahih)

O' Allah, straighten my niyah,  protect me against the shaytan and the deception of the world throughout this holiday, guide me to the right path, utilizing all the time you've given to me to benefit myself and others, and forgive me for my wrong doings. Ya ghaffur, ya rahman, ya rabbal'alamin.

There

I gaze the sky,
I see the stars shining by,
I can see clouds flowing about,
It made my mind thinking for a while.

About how much I have deceived myself,
Pretending I'm right when I'm wrong,
Realization is not enough,
If no actions are to be done.

Understanding is the key,
Why, why and why?
The answer lies beneath it,
Find it,
Understand it,
Embrace it,
Only then you'll see it.

Who am I to write such things,
When I have been reminded,
The right path was shown to me,
But I'm still pretending to be blind.



Blatant Hypocrisy