Felt bad

Do you know the feeling when being ignored by the ones whom you really-really look up to?

And yet, we did not realize that Allah have never ignore us, even after we have committed sins. And yet, He immediately forgives us if we seek for his forgiveness.

Namun, ia berbeza dosa dengan manusia..

I felt really bad. Really-really bad. Ya Allah, do forgive me for repeating the same mistakes over and over again.

@KYS

Hnmm

Mungkin ada silap aku. Apabila orang yang lebih tua meng'ignore' kita bila meminta bantuan kita.

Mungkin cara aku berkata-kata dengan mereka. Mungkin cara aku berkata-kata di khalayak ramai.

Ya, aku manusia lemah yang perlukan petunjuk kalian. Sekiranya abang-abang, kakak-kakak, pakcik-pakcik, makcik-makcik tidak dapat menerima saya, beritahulah di mana silap saya.

Kelak saya yang tertanya-tanya. Astaghfirullah, bersangka baik ku sudah hilang. Ya Allah, bantulah hamba mu yang lemah ini, janganlah biar diri ini terpesong dari jalan yang benar.

Less talking, more thinking. By observing, will that work? This feeling inside me, must have come from somewhere. Time to Muhasabah myself.