Ada kalanya

Ada kalanya lucu. Ada kalanya terkesima. Dan ada kalanya sedih.

Melihat dua entiti yang saling menyalahkan antara satu sama lain. Saling tuduh-menuduh. Saling memburuk-burukkan. Kemudian, saling mempertahan-tahankan entiti masing-masing.

Mungkin kelihatan cliche di sini. Heheh.

Tetapi terpana di akal fikiran saya. Bagi orang seperti saya, yang hanya mahu melihat tanpa berkata-kata apa. Apakah saya tidak mempunyai sebarang pendirian seperti majoriti besar sahabat-sahabat saya yang lain? Sama ada yang sebaya, mahupun yang jauh lebih tua dari saya. Mereka tidak lekang untuk menyatakan pendirian mereka di khalayak ramai.

Mereka bukan calang-calang insan. Ada sebahagian daripada mereka, tergolong dalam kalangan insan yang amat saya kagumi serta hormati. Pendirian saya ketika mengenali mereka, merekalah anak-anak muda yang bakal memandu ummah ke arah cahaya kemenangan. Secara zahirnya, saya dan mereka adalah saudara seaqidah.

But, my real question is. Can the truth be upheld, if it is driven by ridiculing others?

Manusia

Manusia memang selalu lalai memperhitungkan bahawa dia salah. Setelah datang malapetaka dengan tiba-tiba dia menjadi bingung lalu menyalahkan orang lain atau mencari helah lepas diri - Hamka

via Kak Rasailul Ashwaq

Hampir

Hampir setiap kali aku melihat satu kemungkaran di hadapan aku, yang mana di dalam hatiku menyuruh untuk berkata-kata, namun hampir kali itu juga aku gagal. Seruan hati gagalkan dizahirkan dengan perbuatan. Walaupun aku yakin boleh lakukannya. Tetap gagal.

Ternyata, aku hanya dapat membenci dengan hati.

Lemahnya imanku.

Unexpected events

A young man just graduated from a university. Finally, he got his first degree. Later that night after he celebrated his achievement with his family, he reviewed his short term and long term goals. He laid out his plan, what and where he's going to be in 50 years time. Since he had been offered with a job with a local firm, he is very adamant that he's going to be very successful in life.

The next day, he died.

Seringkali, Aku Lupa

Seringkali, aku berkata-kata tanpa meniliti bait-bait yang diperkata.

Seringkali, aku tidak memerhati keadaan sekeliling sebelum berkata-berkata.

Seringkali, aku berkata ikut suka.

Seringkali, aku menghukum membabi buta.

Oleh itu,

Seringkali, aku melukai hati orang-orang di sekeling ketika itu.

Seringkali, aku akan menyesal akan tindakan yang aku lakukan sebelum itu.

Seringkali, aku membenci diriku kerana tidak terfikir terlebih dahulu.

Seringkali, aku menitiskan air mata mengenangkan peristiwa dahulu

Walaupun,

Seringkali, aku mengingatkan diriku bahawa sebelum berkata-kata, fikir itu perlu.

Seringkali, aku mengingatkan diriku agar tuding jari ke arah diri terlebih dahulu.

Seringkali, aku mengingatkan diriku bahawa manusia itu tidak sempurna.

Seringkali, aku mengingatkan diriku  agar sentiasa berhusnozon kepada Allah Ta'ala.

Namun,

Seringkali, aku lupa.

Seringkali, aku lupa bahawa aku pernah lupa.

Mungkin,

Kerna, aku manusia biasa.

T_T

Ya Allah, Engkau lindungilah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.

Minority

It was never easy living as the minority. I'm entirely amazed with those people who manage to stand out despite being the minorities. Honestly, it is hard. Life couldn't get easier, I thought at first. I will be having trouble getting friends. Trouble with lots of other things.

But after a while, my thoughts and feelings started to change. Bits by bits Allah shows me that this new world I'm in, have it's own essence that one might not see unless he understands. I'm not suggesting that I understand the whole situation I'm in, but at least I can see clearer, that Allah let me be in this situation for a reason. I'm still searching for the hikmah though.

Here I am. It has been 1 month since I enrolled as an A-Level student at Taylor's College.

Ice Cream

Usually I would refrain myself from eating something cold. Particularly ice creams. I get cold easily, thus eating an ice cream would be a very bad idea. And for past few years, I've been doing a good job of keeping myself away from ice creams. I would nicely say no if, somebody offers me an ice cream, or cendol perhaps with the alasan of "batuk".

But today, I today, I bought myself an Aiskrim Roti. I couldn't help myself, degil, and I really enjoyed eating it.

I don't know why, all this while I manage to avoid ice creams, the delicious and expensive ones, the creamy and soft ones, but today, I lost to an Aiskrim Roti, sold at the parking lot of Masjid Negeri.